Twelve years ago, I met an extraordinary pranic healer who also happened to be a medical doctor. She scanned my body with the palm of her left hand for about half an hour, while I read a book, and then she proceeded to tell me all about my life!! She was dead accurate about everything. Only one thing did not make sense to me at the time: she informed me that I had a big hole in my energy field at the heart level, undoubtedly, she thought, because I had had a very hard life. This came as a total shock to me. I had what people in those days referred to as “having it all.”

I had a brilliant, funny, gorgeous French husband who, after 22 years of marriage, still treated me with passionate love and devotion. Our closest friends who saw us interact often, thought it was a miracle that time had not eroded our relationship. I had a dream job in the Canadian government – a job usually reserved for well connected male executives. I worked with intellectual giants, who knew how to have fun as well. We lived in my dream house in a virtual forest of mature trees in Toronto, with our two perfect children and a live-in housekeeper. I was a hub of several networks of friends and associates from governments, corporations, professional associations, academia and social activist circles around the world. Our two sons were brilliant, beautiful and socially well adjusted. We entertained and took exotic vacations often. I wore designer clothes which I bought in Paris and New York every year. We all enjoyed good health. There was enough money to live as we pleased. We always had some exciting project or success story to be ecstatic about. My friends thought I had the best of all possible worlds. They literally had me coach them so they could set their lives up the way I had set up mine.

How could this be called a terrible life? Yet the energy analysis was accurate in all its detail about all other issues. In spite of the fact that the hole in my heart (energetically speaking) did not make any sense to me, I was completely blown away by the Energy analysis and I became one of this doctor’s most devoted fans, promoters and students. I learned much about the Energy that flows through the human body, how it works, how it can be applied to every day life and how it can be modified and balanced.

Around this time, I quit my privileged government job and went back to graduate school to rethink my position on just about everything in the world, in light of my encounter with Bio-Energy. Given my public policy background, I did my doctoral research at York University where I also taught applied ethics. I devoured everything I could get my hands on about bio-energy in physics, microbiology, chemistry, linguistics, neuroscience and eastern medicine until I got to the point of diminishing returns in my research.

I attended workshops with the leading edge healers and thinkers from around the world who were developing their own approaches to researching and understanding bio-energy and subjected their theories and practical knowledge to the litmus tests of the scientific method. Much turned out to be conjecture or plain marketing. Many of the scholars and healers I met influenced me greatly. I organized week-end retreats and workshops to share my learning with my friends and associates. I devoted myself full time, to developing a reliable and effective approach to restoring the body’s energy flow for the people in my orbit – at first on a friendly and experimental basis, and later, professionally.

My interdisciplinary doctoral research focused on the patterns of mind that connect our experiences and help us make sense of our world. My thesis, as well as my post- doctoral research were greatly influenced by bio-energy-based healing systems in general and Eva Marchal’s treatment system in particular. At first, I applied bio-energy based techniques in my consulting practice, to help corporations and governments develop strategies that take into account what modern physics tells us about the power and impact of subtle energies. Later, I came to realize that organizations are simply a venue in which their members create themselves and their contexts. What we call professional or work life is none other than a replay of our personal lives in a new context with different actors.

From the moment this realization hit me, all of my work centered on helping people to debunk the myths they live by, get off the treadmill of their familiar and move forward to wellness and congruence with their highest potential. If we have direct access to so much power and so much scope for creating what we want, why live as if we were stuck with our circumstances?

The person I first treated with my emerging bio-energy based protocols was myself. As it turns out, the Bio-Energy Doctor had been right about the hole in my heart. My life, examined from the perspective of my new world view, turned out to be overly mind-driven. It seriously lacked Heart. Hence the hole at the Heart level of the energy body.

Slowly, I started to allow the pieces of my “terrible life” to enter my awareness. One by one, I dismantled and deactivated the powerful patterns of my early traumatic experiences: being born in the devastation and hopelessness of a refugee camp; struggling for food; surviving ten years of terror under the constant threat of torture and imprisonment by the Hungarian communist secret police; growing up in the shadow of a self absorbed mother and a mostly absent and quite volatile father; reproducing my mother’s life in my own marriage; being an immigrant (read: undeserving outcast) three times over and so forth.

As soon as I found the courage to face my Self, major shifts immediately started to occur in my life. I started to paint in oils (never having done any art work, not even finger painting before). Two years later, I held my first solo art show. Many of my relationships with friends and family members faded and eventually disappeared from my life. My story book marriage ended in a nightmare of mutual abuse, until my first husband and I ran out of steam and decided to go our separate ways – but not before inflicting terrible wounds on each other. Tibold, a college Sweetheart and a giant of a Heart Person, tracked me down on the internet. We eloped in the Bahamas (imagine me, Miss Formality eloping!) and I followed him to Philadelphia, Fort Lauderdale, Costa Rica and Las Vegas. I am now writing a book about his Zen ways. All the seasonal and situational annoyances of health such as flues, bronchitis, back aches and arthritis also disappeared from my body. In short, as my world view and attitude changed, so did my health, habits, structures, and relationships and, most importantly, my level of joy, peace and vitality.

I am not saying that I can stop working on myself now, or that all is perfect. Far from it. I continue to sponge up new horizons and seek out leading edge research in neuroscience and microbiology to increase the impact of my treatments and bring faster and deeper lasting health and freedom to people’s lives. I now know that in each moment of life, we can choose how to live that moment. have an opportunity to decide what we shall do with that moment that we are living. Each decision we make – consciously, unconsciously or by default -- sets a cycle of Becoming in motion that either supports or impedes our natural flow of Being. Since there is only change and no stasis, we have no choice other than the constant process of Becoming. We may as well influence that process, if we are going to be stuck with the results of it. Conscious Self Creation takes charge of our process of Becoming. That is what I offer through what I now call Self Creation Therapy, to those who want to be in charge of their health, relationships, experiences and circumstances.

Everything I have learned to date seems to have merged into my Self Creation Therapy practice. For the first time in my life, my professional work is a true reflection of my beliefs, strong interests, skills, research findings and experience. I love what I do and I love seeing the quantum changes in the people I work with.